So, yesterday was a bad day. I have to apologise for my venting here.
Today everything is okay, and yesterday I didn't cheat but instead went to have a massage then went to bed. David and I also had a long chat about the diet, whether or not I should be doing it if it makes me feel so down but today everything has been put into perspective. I was just going through carb withdrawal in a big way (I love bread and white pasta). Being back in the correct mindset I have decided to get back into going to the gym, and sorting out myself and my life. There is a bundle of paperwork upstairs that has not been sorted since we moved into the house 6 months ago, and when David gets back from work tonight we are going to tackle it together.
I have even cooked David a meal for tonight. I have stood over the hob for almost an hour cooking a chilli and didn't even feel like eating it, the smell was enough.
Sorry for yesterday again