Sunday 1st February......Already!

So, today I am sitting at work . The TV isn't working because we are having to use the small generator instead of the big one. Just been catching up with all my emails, all 200 of them (received in 2 days) and then though I would have a look at the blogs and websites I normally read, and I stumbled across my own website.

So, you ask, what have I been up to since the last blog entry? Well, yesterday morning I was working, but in a new job. I was sat in the dispatch office for one of the companies we work for, waiting on engineers coming in to collect items. I then had to scan them out through the computer system, and that's about it. I did no work at all - no one came in. Then I had the joy of going for an eyebrow wax. My friend Sara is a qualified beauty therapist so I go to her, normally every 2 or 3 weeks to tame the wild beasts that insist on crawling across my face, always trying to expand down to my eyes and join in the middle.
Just before my eyebrow wax though I went to talk with my Lighterlife consultant about coming off the diet. This past couple of weeks have been really difficult and I don't want to be miserable when losing weight, because I will end up rewarding myself with food at the end and piling it all back on again. I am not in the right place just now for it Willy Russell's "Blood Brothers". It was fantastic. If you are ever in the area and get the chance, get tickets to go and see the Livingston Players, they are great. They are already working on their next production, a musical so I am looking forward to seeing that.

As well as all that, yesterday the tickets for the Scottish Wedding fair arrived. We are going next Sunday, all 7 of us and it is going to be great. Almost all my bridesmaids are going, unfortunately one of them has to work, but hopefully we can all get together again soon. So, anyway we are going to have a bit of a girlie night on the Saturday with everyone coming round to mine for dinner and drinks before heading off to the show the next day. Even David is coming (although I think that has much more to do with the free booze and cake than the wedding dresses and favors). I am really looking forward to next weekend.

Enjoy what is left of Sunday.

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Still Ouch!

So, after my mammoth weight loss and my long, so long walk yesterday I am feeling just a little weak, but excited. My legs are still burning, and aching from yesterday and that 5 mile walk but I feel just a little bit more healthy for it. I am looking forward to going out for another walk, as long as it is not in the next 24 hours. David and I are planning to do a little hillwalking during the week. Well, I say hill walking, there is a mound at the back of my mum's house called Dechmont Law that we are going to walk to, up and back again taking the dog with us.

So, how do I beat that weight loss from last week? That was a mammoth (I know repeated but it really is a great adjective) amount of weight to lose in one week. I was so shocked, stunned but not gobsmacked (would never happen). I have actually lost 18lbs in 2 weeks - OMG!

Just contemplating another hot bath when I get in from work.
Enjoy what's left of Sunday Night.

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Week 2 complete

OMG! so, I am just back from Edinburgh and Lighterlife. I have lost 12lbs this week. I am so pleased with myself. This week has been a roller coaster, as you know and I am so glad that I haven't cheated, the results today would not have been the same if I had cheated.
God this diet really does work.
I am on my way out now to do my 5 mile walk as the start of my training for the moonwalk. Will post another entry when I get back, if I survive.

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1 more sleep to go..

So, I have one more sleep to go before I get weighed again. I am actually looking forward to tomorrow as it is the first week that I have completely stuck to Lighterlife. It will be interesting to see how much weight I have lost. This week has been difficult at times, as you know but I am really pleased with the fact that I haven't cheated and have been in complete food abstinence.

Will let you know how things go tomorrow.

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Day 12 - so far, so good

So, today is another good day. God, that's 2 in a row. Go me!
Lighterlife is working for me. I think I am now in ketosis (fat burning) as I don't feel hungry, and I am drinking constantly. I am aiming for a good weight loss this week, even going to be moving a bed from my mum's house to mine so that I can get a bit of exercise into this week as well.

In addition to the weight loss goals, I have set myself another goal. I have signed up for the Edinburgh Moonwalk in June. I feel that by this time my fitness and everything will be much better and it also gives me a reason (well another) to go to the gym and start with training. Walking 26.2 miles is going to be tough, and I am going to have to start training soon, which will boost my weight loss and hopefully lessen the time that I will have to be in complete abstinence from food.

As well as all that, I have an announcement to make. I have finally finished making all of the day wedding invitations. I still have to put the wording inside, but the actual construction, and cutting of all the fiddly bits is all finished. The evening invitations are still to be started and they will probably get done over the next couple of weeks. We are starting to tick lots of things off the to-do list which is great, but at the same time it brings it all home that the wedding is getting ever closer (okay, I know it is still ages away, I am not completely delusional).

Enjoy your day.

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The morning after the night before

So, yesterday was a bad day. I have to apologise for my venting here.

Today everything is okay, and yesterday I didn't cheat but instead went to have a massage then went to bed. David and I also had a long chat about the diet, whether or not I should be doing it if it makes me feel so down but today everything has been put into perspective. I was just going through carb withdrawal in a big way (I love bread and white pasta). Being back in the correct mindset I have decided to get back into going to the gym, and sorting out myself and my life. There is a bundle of paperwork upstairs that has not been sorted since we moved into the house 6 months ago, and when David gets back from work tonight we are going to tackle it together.

I have even cooked David a meal for tonight. I have stood over the hob for almost an hour cooking a chilli and didn't even feel like eating it, the smell was enough.

Sorry for yesterday again

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Totally Fed Up...

Today has been such a crappy day. I am having a low day on lighterlife. I want to eat, am feeling sick every time I drink one of my smoothies or soups and have barely drunk a thing today. I assume that this is all down to the amount that I have not drunk but even still I feel like crap. It has got to be expected, I mean when living on less that 600 calories a day you have to be really narky every now and again but I don't think it was ever this bad the last time I did the diet, at least not until I was into week 5 and decided to quit. This first 2 weeks has been so difficult, even with not following the diet completely last week I just cant see the light (or the slim body) at the end of the tunnel. I just keep thinking that I am going to fail, which I suppose will eventually become a self-fulfilling prophecy unless I can change the way I am thinking just now.

Even now, I am sitting watching Paul McKenna on TV, he is promising to make you thin by subscribing to his logic. He is trying to train everyone to think like a thin person, even though "fat" people know what to do, we just cant stop ourselves from finishing everything on the plate, or finishing the kids dinner when they are finished, or rewarding ourselves with chocolate/biscuits/take away.

If I had the cash, I would definatelt resort to the Kerry Katona diet of lying on a surgeon's table, unconscious whilst they hack bits of me away (lazy but so easy) then worry about maintaining it after.

Ok, self-pity over you will be glad to know - sorry guys

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Faux Eyelashes

So, I have been looking into faux eyelashes for a while. I have really long eyelashes, which when I don't wear mascara look quite full but as soon as I put some mascara on, whether it be black, brown or clear then they look really fine, and split into individual lashes. I want to have the look of thick lashes.

Does anyone know any good brands of lashes, that actually do what they say on the tin?
I have been looking at M.A.C but if anyone can recommend any others for me to try then I would be grateful.

so, on another note, I feel like I am neglecting my friends a bit. The last time I saw my friend was Hogmany, almost a month ago, and one of my bridesmaids was last spotted in June when we went to see Bon Jovi through in Glasgow. That is just ridiculous! I need to try and be a better friend this year, otherwise I will be dumped by all my bridesmaids. We are getting together (we almost all of us) at the start of February for a girlie night, followed by a wedding fayre on the Sunday. I am so excited about wedding fares in general, think I may even keep going after David and I get married. The fashion shows are so good, the dresses are beautiful (or completely strange) and it just allows you to fantasise about what you will look like on your big day.

Going for my lunch now, going to have some lighterlife Chicken soup. Yum!

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